Hello, hello! Welcome to the final installment of the Writing Challenge Q&A. I must admit that it’s been really nice knowing what I’m going to write about these last few weeks, but I’m kind of looking forward to just randomly picking a topic next week. This week’s ramble is courtesy of the lovely Morganna Williams. She chose number 26 (“write about an area in your life that you’d like to improve”). So, I suppose I’ll be talking about self-improvement for a little while.

Honestly, there are a lot of areas in my life that could be improved upon, just like there are areas that are great just the way they are. It’s hard to pick one. I could definitely use less procrastination. I could be more optimistic. I could be more adventurous (rather than sticking to the “plan”). And I could definitely work on not overthinking everything. But this is all stuff that I’m relatively okay with. It’s stuff that I’m slowly working on. I’ve found a way to overcome procrastination with my writing at least. I try to steer myself away from worst case scenarios. I’m saying “yes” a little more to last minute plans (only once or twice so far, but baby steps). Overthinking is still my downfall. So what would I like to improve? I guess I’m still not that great at socializing, which is something I’m okay with, but I know it’s not a good habit to nurture.

I fully admit that it’s me when I lose touch with people. I suck at remembering to text or message people unless they get in contact first. It’s really weird because I never had this problem when I was online with people at four in the morning. I was always the person to initiate chats back then. Adulthood has changed that. I’ve fallen victim to the “I talked to them first last time, so it’s their turn” mentality, which eventually warped into “I’ll talk to them tomorrow,” and we all know tomorrow never comes. I’m also super bad about thinking of texting someone while I’m in bed, then forgetting about it when I wake up. Socializing and I just don’t get along.
It also doesn’t help that most of my friendships are long distance. I hate the phone and always forget to email people back in a timely manner if it isn’t business type stuff. Hell, I can’t even write letters to my oldest sister (the jailbird) on anything like a regular basis. And yes, I realize this is all on me. I apologize for it repeatedly with different people. I just don’t know how to break myself of my reclusive habits.

I’m sure my hermit habits impact other areas of my life besides friendship too. After all, how am I supposed to meet a potential significant other if I’m never talking to people? How am I supposed to network for business connections if I don’t want to bother people (another big reason I hesitate when texting or messaging: I don’t really want to pester them, I just say I do)? I need to be more sociable. As much as it pains me to admit that, it’s true.
So, what about you? What area could be improved in your life? Do you have any suggestions for overcoming reclusive tendencies?
See you all next week!